12:40 a.m. - 2003-04-17
worthless bag of chad
this past 24 hours
has been more than my heart stomach can take
it's not that it broke
more-so that it is breaking
at this moment I don't think I have the energy/will it requires to wake up in the morning
let alone sleep.
I can see the future of us
and I see me sitting on my computer
and you blindingly happy
totally forgetting that I ever existed
It's ok, though. I shouldnt have expected anything else out of something I put my time/heart into. It all goes to shit eventually. Why should this have been the exception?
I can't help but feel like a worthless bag of shit.
What else could I feel like?
Wait. A worthless bag of shit who can't handle things that happen in it's life because he is a fucking bitch and doesnt know how to say what he wants to.
That works better.
I'm going to go throw up now.
