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2:28 a.m. - 2001-11-10 I personally think that everyone I see at shows looks cool and seems cool when I am around, but they all look at me weird because I dont go to the shows that much. Reason being THEY FUCKING SUCK. I dont like bands that suck! All these fucking "emo" and "straight edge hardcore" and "screamo" and fucking bs is all a bunch of shit. If any of these bands had any talent they wouldnt play to a crowd of 20 people......that they all know. They wouldnt have to rent out a place themselves. Bands with talent get booked, they dont book themselves and then talk shit about the people who pay to see them. FUCK. I dont know how much sense I am making, but I really have felt like just fucking blowing off steam the last few days/weeks. Some of that previous comment may be a bit harsh, but it is true 92% of the time. Here anyway. (please note that I do not dislike hardcore/emo/screamo bands, just the 10 million shitty ones) I also fucking hate "scene style". I mean sure, I love how I dress, but I hate how dressing like this puts me in some fucking category of being. I mean, I dont care if you call me shit, I dont care, because you are the dumbfuck, but like i've said before I DONT claim to be anything. I listen to punk music, I AM NOT A FUCKING PUNK. I listen to emo, I AM NOT A FUCKING EMO KID. I listen to ska, I AM NOT A FUCKING SKANKER. I just like music! And I like being myself! If you can't understand that then go fuck a dog you ignorant pos! I also fucking hate the fact that I feel a pressure to fit in somewhere. My friends are all so different...I am friends with all types of people and due to this I seem to stick out when I am with them. I dont alter how I look to fit in with them.....but I always feel like I should try. And sometimes when I am with them and I see kids that "look like me" I feel weird because I think they are going to call me a poser. Which I shouldnt care about because they are the fucking dumbasses who are being that judgemental. I just want to fit in and find a cute girl that digs me and the same style of music. I fucking hate being alone. Fuck. I hate swearing so much, but I fucking need to every now and then. Fuck.
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